I am a second time mom. my daughter is 6. I dont even think I've been around a baby since her. so this feels new again.

I am due next month, and terrified.

I'm so scared. I'm scared of SIDS. I'm scared my husband or I will drop the baby going up or down 2 flights of stairs to get into our apartment. I'm scared I'm going to forget how to hold a baby, or nurse one. I'm so scared of sleeping, because I need to be awake every hour of every day to make sure baby is still breathing.

I mean, my gosh.... will this list of fears ever end!? I feel ridiculous. but I am literally terrified.

the only thing that calms my fears slightly, is seeing my almost 7 year old daughter. happy and healthy. and I made her. so hopefully this baby will be okay too.