Over it... I’m making myself SICK!

Hi mommas and soon to be mommas ❤️ Before i say anything else, i want to encourage every single one of you to continue your journey with TTC no matter how long you’ve been trying; years, months, whatever it is, KEEP TRYING!

As for me, i am giving up. I’m losing faith, I’m losing hope, I’m losing my train of thought, and most importantly, I’m losing my healthy physical and mental state when it comes to TTC. I am not throwing myself a pity party, not looking for sympathy, I’ve realized I’m stressing myself out BEYOND measures and the LAST thing anyone needs to be doing is stressing while TTC. I realize that i need to just STOP trying and just let God take the wheel. Let God’s plan for me overrule my life instead of trying to steer away from his plan and create my own. It seemed like every time i was peeing, it was on a stick or in a cup. That CAN’T be healthy. It got to the point where I’m having dreams literally EVERY. NIGHT. that I’m ovulating and i need to hurry up and take a test at 2-3 A.M 🙄.... but NEVER a dream about a BFP. I can’t even believe how much money I’ve spent on these pregnancy test, the ovulation kits, etc. and EVERY. TIME i get that BFN, i swear up and down it’s me; there’s something wrong with my body and then i begin to try all of these different methods that seemed to work for everyone else, try again next month and BOOM... another BFN. I’m tired of making myself believe i am pregnant whenever my boobs get sore or i get nauseas, or i miss AF. That’s another thing. I just got back on track with AF and this month, i missed the whole thing, more than likely due to stress... I’m just over it. I’m hurt, I’m stressed, I’m literally making myself SICK!

I am SOOOO BEYOND happy for all of you who are receiving your BFP, faint lines, expecting your 2nd or 3rd child, etc. just know that is GOD on your side ❤️ he said “Ask and you shall receive” but he will also give it to you on HIS time and HIS time is ALWAYS ON TIME! 🤞🏽. I pray you ladies have a healthy 9 month pregnancy as well as a healthy delivery to a beautiful baby boy or girl ❤️❤️

Once again, keep your heads up ladies! KEEP TRYING FOR THAT BABY!! Keep praying and don’t give up! 🗣 Thank you to all of you who have given me advice when i would post something. Thank you for sharing your stories. Thank you for being strong enough to continue this journey because not all of us are. I will continue to watch your beautiful testimony’s and congratulate all of you on your success. Pray for you when/if you need it. Answer any questions, etc. but i will no longer be posting any stories, questions, pics of test, etc.

BABY DUST, BABY DUST, BABY DUST TO ALL OF YOU AND MAY GOD BE WITH YOU AND WORK IN YOUR FAVOR. ❤️🤞🏽🥳