So numb....

I had my ultrasound last Monday and baby measured 8wks with no heartbeat! Had hcg levels yesterday and they are at 20,700 (doctor said it should be closer to 100,00) going to have them rechecked tomorrow along with another ultrasound next week to Confirm it is no Longer a viable pregnancy. .. we went thru this last Christmas and I was so happy to be pregnant again especially since our babies due date would have been last Month. I feel so broken, angry, and just flat out down! Feel so bad about letting myself feel so sad, I know this too shall pass but while it does it's emotionally draining!!! Prayers to the mama's going thru this!! ♥