It’s time to walk away and it sucks...

So I have this boy. When we started talking I didn’t think he would last. He was not my typical type and everything about him wasn’t what I wanted. So I never pushed for more because I just couldn’t see him being the person I end up with. We started very PG-13. Making out and having fun. Then a few months in started sleeping together. No label but I told him I don’t sleep with someone who’s sleeping with someone else, he agreed and said him too. So several months go by and we are having a great time. I told him it’s been almost a year so maybe we should try and be more. I told him we both need to think about it. But we never had a follow up conversation about it. Well we’ve had a rough couple of weeks, which is not normal for us. He’s always been really nice and sweet. I’m a fiesty person and he’s very calm and that’s how he treats me. Well lately he’s been treating me more like a girl he’s having sex with then his friend he’s having sex with and that’s a big difference. So I feel like we’re at the point where we need to go our separate ways. We have plans for Friday and I really wanna pull the trigger then. But my anxiety is getting the best of me and even though I didn’t fully have him I’m gonna miss what I had. For a little over a year he was there. This is my first real break up. This is the first time I’m walking away because it’s not good enough. The guys I’ve dated in the past only wanted one thing and I didn’t give it up so they left. I don’t wanna end on a bad note cuz we work together and would like to be civil in time.

****I know this isn’t ideal for most women but I didn’t plan this it just kinda happened. So no judgement just words of encouragement please.****