I’ve been really depressed lately since my miscarriage in early December. I immediately stopped my antidepressants because I couldn’t even be bothered taking them. Especially because it dragged out so badly and I didn’t feel like I had much support around me. I couldn’t extend my support group either because my partner and our families didn’t want anyone knowing what happened (I’m 19 and the pregnancy was unintentional, but we were going to go through with it and became happy about it, I was just over 3 months pregnant when I miscarried).

I stopped eating, lost 10kg in a week. Stopped my hygiene habits. I didn’t wash my hair. I simply kept it in a small bun pretty much since then.

Yesterday I decided I wanted to take my hair out of the bun and wear it in a ponytail. Well that wasn’t going to happen. I was totally matted when I took it out.

This was after I’d already started brushing the ends 😕.

So today I realised I start my new job transfer tomorrow and I need to at least try and be presentable.

So I put in conditioner and spent AGERS brushing it all out

I left the conditioner in for an hour because my hair felt genuinely dead. I spent a whole week at a beach on a trip so the salt must have just killed it. Especially because I wasn’t washing it.

Well I rinsed it and now:

I have normal hair again 😋 I didn’t think for a second my hair would even completely go back. Especially because that first photo doesn’t at all show how bad it really was.

I’m just happy I finally got off my ass and did something good for myself instead of continuing to wallow in my emotions. Of course it’s only a temporary bandaid for how I’ve been feeling, and more likely than not, tomorrow I will wake up feeling the same as I have been, probably chuck my hair in a bun and forget about it again.

But I’m just happy I finally don’t feel so overwhelmed by how gross I’ve been feeling.

I almost feel like I’ve glammed myself up when all I did was wash my hair 😂