i’m too stressed lol

ik it’s kinda weird but i’m jealous of my sister. my friend group is kinda prude, and don’t want to have fun, and have barely any guy friends. I feel like i always have to be “on” bc they seem judgy. I have a bff but her mom forced her to go to catholic school, she hates it there, and she’s the one friend who seems to understand me the most, so I have to stay pent up at school. My sister has so much fun, and I have guy friends, but my friends are just not good with change. Literally one cried at hoco because she was away from us for one minute. Idk what I’m supposed to do because I feel like I don’t fit in even though we’ve been friends since we were in elementary school.