I’m just sad

My hubby and I have been TTC for quite a while now and my best friend and her husband started trying and got pregnant in 3 months. I’m happy for her, she’s always wanted to be a mom and she’s going to be amazing, so I’m not sad that she’s pregnant. I’m sad that I’m not. I was hopeful that since we were trying around the same time that we would get pregnant and share the journey together, but I just feel like it’s never going to be me and I’ll just watch everyone else forever. Anymore I operate under the assumption it’s not meant to be, it’s less painful then when AF shows, and she always shows...