HAS ANYONE GONE THROUGH THIS?😭 I NEED YOUR EXPERIENCES

I need some help😔 I had an abortion a month ago and it’s been hitting me off and on. I get really emotional about it some times but other times I’m really glad I did it. I just started birth control yesterday but I’m kind of regretting that too. I’m not sure why. Idk if it’s just my hormones all over the place or what it is😭😭😭

I dont have money nor insurance to see a therapist.