WRECKED SAD

I tried to have a cry bc all my emotions keep hitting me at night.. Well I burst out crying silently and my 1yr old daughter grabs me and holds me ..made me cry even more bc how much I love her.. I ask God what did you do to my baby why does she keep knowing when I'm depressed.its pitch black dark in the room noone around and again I was crying silently HOW DOES SHE KNOW SHES 1 Like she's Soo freaking amazing but her mommy is Soo damaged almost to the point of no return ..I'm 20w pregnant my mom just died I can't eat and I keep seeing a dead mom every single night I'm losing my mind #Wrecked I'd be dead with out her she gives me strength that only God knows 💜🦄💜🦄 I'm not ok but I don't want her to know that🤧