I just want to understand but I probably never will.

As someone who has struggled with low self esteem her whole life, it takes a LOT to take a picture, even more to share it.

People I know tell me all the time I'm beautiful and to own it. But personally I don't see it.

I see an average, plain, flawed woman who doesn't deserve the compliments.

This is where I'm trying to understand.

And why I'm posting here.

I see posts constantly of women saying positive things to other women. So much saying to build each other up. And on here, I see that a lot. It's beautiful and amazing and so heart warming to see women being kind to one another.

I made a mistake.

I shared a picture. I felt pretty for a rare moment. I haven't shared in a long time. I tagged it "beautiful". It took SO MUCH to do that, even more to share it.

I started getting notifications people were commenting on it. One after another. Females. My pic is being tagged, shared, commented on. A first experience for me. I check it out. These women are telling me I'm ugly. They said I had no right to use the tag "beautiful". I was invited to put a bag on my head. They said I should delete my account and never should have posted to begin with.

I deleted the pic. I spent HOURS blocking them. I reported them and their posts. I deactivated the account.

I just want to know. Why do we build some people up but tear others down?

Why did I deserve that??

Posting anonymously for obvious reasons.