I have a problem

I’ve noticed that it’s hard for me to be happy in my current relationship.

When I was with my ex, the father of my daughter I never once thought about being with anyone else. A factor that can be adding to that is the fact that we were together in person all the time. We did long distance for a couple of months due to work but he would always come see me.

With my current boyfriend I’m doing long distance, and we’ll be doing long distance for 4 years. When he’s here I’m focused on being with him, but when he’s gone I can’t help but look at other guys. I don’t talk to them but I wonder what it’ll be like talking to someone else and if I would be happier. I often find myself thinking that I would be happier if I could be with someone thats physically with me. Recently I told my friend that I’ve been thinking of hooking up with other guys bc I’m tired of feeling lonely in my relationship. The thing about me is that I crave and need to physically with someone and this long distance isn’t giving me what I need..

I love my boyfriend, but the circumstances are so hard that sometimes I feel like I can’t do it.

Are long distance relationships for everyone?

I feel so guilty.. what should I do?