So tired! I’m sooo emotionally drained.

I had my reversal done 3/2018. I have tried to stay positive and keep a happy face on through it all, but tonight I couldn’t eat, I felt a knot in my throat and I felt like it was all for nothing! Usually I lean on my husband, he is my best friend, my spouse....my soulmate, but I couldn’t let him see me this upset over this. So I held it in and came to bed. I feel like I’m going to explode in tears and I don’t know if I can keep going with disappointment knocking me down every month. Thank you in advance for letting me vent.....no one else really understands