So I don’t know about y’all but I spent my valentines getting high as hell and ordering some SkipTheDishes, and I don’t mean to sound ungrateful or anything, believe me!! But...and some of y’all ain’t gonna like me for saying this....I definitely would have enjoyed it more if I had a man? OKAY PAUSE! Let’s reevaluate first, I hate to sound needy and reliant on relationships but I haven’t been in a relationship in a while and I find myself eager to get back into one.

Especially now more then ever I mean, I’m getting older, I’m one of my only friends who is single, and I want kids while I’m youngish. But I am a royal fuck up and the whole getting a relationship process, I mean I’m either pushing every situation that may come my way way too hard, Or I just don’t do anything at all and expect everything in my mind to happen without any of my aid at all. I mean why can’t I just read minds-Lol am I the only one?

Now I think I’m attractive and nice like I definitely rate in the high 6’s out of...11 but I think I am quite lovely and my personality definitely makes up where my looks may... lack for a better word.

So, I try and not try but it seems apparently no one actually wants what I’m selling?? And I got some food stuff here I mean a girl who just trynna chill, get high, play some video games, and just enjoy each other entirely!! What else do you want!! Am I the only one!

And don’t get me wrong I love the idea of the women acting first but honestly sometimes we ladies just need a man to sweep us up and buy us lunch at an all you can eat buffet, cause you know your girl likes to eat, and pass out together from a food coma and maybe, probably, definitely smoke some weed. Like Yes I’m a womanist and No I don’t find value in being loved by a man, but I still want it and would like to be loved have that with another person, I mean we would also obviously do some freaky shit 😛😛 but the other stuff is equally as important. And frankly....i think I’m allowed to want that!

So tell me ladies am I crazy or do y’all also hear what im saying?

Do you always find yourself looked over and devalued, wanting something you can’t have? Telling yourself your time will come but never having that “time”.

Let me know your thoughts and how you think I can trap my next hubby😂 !

- the blvcklisT