*This post will be very long*

So everyone, this post is something that will be very long and also detailed, but I basically need to vent. Last year in January, I met a guy and basically we began talking. At first we started to hit it off and things were going great. As time went on, I started to like the guy a little bit more and more. Fast forward, and a couple months in, the guy flipped switches. Stop calling me beautiful, his texts were dry, kept ignoring, and all the good stuff. It kept getting to the point where I was literally hovering over him and doing everything to please him. I kept trying to change myself for him. Yes, actually change my own self for the douche. Anyways, prior to that, we did end things here and there. I later did find out, that while he was “talking” to me, he was interested and was meeting with another girl for 6 MONTHS. 6 WHOLE MONTHS. Yes...when I found out I was completely devastated. After that I tried to move on, but I couldn’t. So guess who ran back...ME. We were talking and all that and of course, ended it again. And once again, I ran back. Now, many of you are saying, why the hell do you keep going back. Well, it’s because I actually believed in my own little mind, that things between this guy and I would work out. Him and I did have traits in which we both wanted in one another, and we did have similar personalities in a way. After talking for so long, he decided to end it with me because I had found out from another person that other girls were with him, while speaking to me. When I confronted him about it, he left. Next day, he came back. It’s been rocky since then and now we were supposed to meet. I constantly kept trying and wanted to talk and see if it’ll work, but he always had an excuse coming up. And then today, he just basically ended it, due to my “attitude”. Keep in mind that I genuinely had cared foe the guy, stuck by him and all his bs. And he complained of “taking me back”. Not only did this all hurt me, but I am broken. I do not know who I am anymore, I do not know my own worth, but I also don’t know the potential I have anymore. If anyone has been thru this, please reach out. This was all toxic for over a year and more. Please help, and please understand my end. I never knew love could hurt like this, to the point where I simply cannot heal. 😞😞😞😞