I am done...

I’m fat, TTC for 3 years and have PCOS. People always say: you don’t look fat, you have such a pretty face, it’ll happen, you are young.

Fuck ... just fuck ! I’m done.

I fell pregnant. I wanted that insta moment where my husband gets all excited and happy..... we both looked at each other and thought ... what now. Is this real. Will it last.

Of course it didn’t. It was ectopic and I had to have surgery.

Now I get told buy a specialist that my husbands sperm is bad and with only having one tube, pcos and my BMI of 39 we won’t be able to fall pregnant naturally.

Now I get told I have diabetes.....

When will it end. When will my motivation come to loose weight. I don’t know why I can’t do anything. I feel stuck and just end up eating more...: