WARNED: LONG POST

So was hard to put a topic to this.. could be my pregnancy hormones or just plain depressed but latley ive been having family anxiety.. my family and i haven't been as close as we used to. I mean every weekend we'd have game nights or everyday its a funny text from someone or a simply hi now seems we have to make a year advance to be able to see the siblings. Past couple days ive been feeling lonely to the point where I dont want to be around my girls💔 and that makes me feel like a bad mother. I love my girls to death but this depression gets me bad.. last week i had msgd my fam to have a game night yesterday (saturday) some said yes others said maybe and 1 never answered then Saturday came and 1 person said theyre watching a fight at their house if anyone wanted to go that made me mad/sad all I wanted was to see my siblings then top it off hubby got waisted🍺 out with his friends n i was home all night with my girls wich just broke me down worse. I literally felt lonely😩😩 and just writing this is making me cry 😭😭... i don't have friends nor able to vent to anyone