I’m losing it. 🙄

Learning all about endo ive gained 1/2 of my sanity back knowing I could have an answer to all this. As soon as I heard it, I just knew. I knew this is what it had to be. I’ve had countless ultrasounds, tests, exams, etc.

I’m newly insured, so they’re trying to push birth control before surgery. I told the NP I’d rather pay cash for the surgery considering my SO & I have been ttc for 5 months & have no plans of going on bc.

I also believe I’ve let this go on too long. I’m to the point I will lose my job from sick days, and I cry everyday due to the pain, can’t sleep, nausea/vomitting & dizziness anytime I have pain.

The countless cysts, inner thigh pain, vaginal pain, lower back pain... And constantly feeling like I cannot freely move my body because of my ovaries. I’d rather a surgeon get in there and see for themself what it is. The root of all this. A real diagnosis. I’m so tired of living my life like this.

I have an appointment Thursday to see the actual doctor in their network. I hope he won’t brush it off. Ive been told by other doctors that I need to have the laparoscopy right away. I live in a small area, I just hope things go well.

I know this was a long post, just a rant 🙄😂