Giving birth without epidural •yay or nay?

So

Soooo I am 18 and almost 12 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby😊

I’ve been going back and fourth with my family on ME wanting to go natural and then saying I wouldn’t be able to take the pain because it hurts like a mf.

I 100% want to have a natural birth.

Yeahh I mean it’s not really up to be to decide because only god knows what will happen. But that’s what I hope for.

Can you beautiful mommas please tell me if you went natural and it was great or if it actually is a good idea for me to go with an epidural?

No sugar coating the pain please!!! 😩

I just want to prepare myself ❤️