Venting

This is like the only place I can hide and be at peace from everything, I really have lost everyone from friends to family and my ex s/o ... How could people be so selfish and mean towards me when I have always been there for them, when they need me I'm always there no questions asked but when I need them the most they are never there .... So much it's happening so fast and nothing seems so be going as planned or right in my life 😔 but my life has always kind of been just me I have a hard time forgiving people but it's like your always with the same bull shit so why bother with that person you know