Married and Jealous Need Advice

I need to vent. I don’t know how to shake this jealously feeling I have. I went to medical assisting school and passed. I got certified but never was able to find a job due to the fact I got pregnant. My husband got out of the army and went to become a MA. He automatically got a job right after school. I am so jealous of him. I legit do not want to be around him because he is so happy. I feel like the most horrible wife ever because I do not want celebrate his success when that is all I wanted. I am a stay at home mom now and do doula work on the side but I just feel stuck and miserable.