Smoking???

Is there any females on here that have smoked cigarettes while be pregnant? Do not shame anybody that does or me! If you are here to be rude or tell us how we are less of a mother for smoking than back away and leave this thread. I really want to see if I am the only mother &’ if not how their pregnancy is going. I am extremely terrified that something is wrong with my baby. I have tried constantly to quit, but I can’t. I start stressing out bad. The doctor has told me better to smoke than to stress. But I see feel worthless and as if I am a bad mother already! I am 11 weeks and 5 days.