Relationship/Life Trouble

So, me and my boyfriend have been dating for almost two years now, we’re literally like soulmates and he’s the love of my life. But recently I have been having so many doubts about our future because he has completely different plans than I do. His plans seem to not Involve me at all whereas I’m trying to plan some things around him. I’m not one to throw my career to the side completely just to be with him. But every time I try to work things out where we could be together, he sweeps it under the rug and just forgets about it or doesn’t even consider it.

He’s also always leaving to hang out with his family. Today he found out I wasn’t at work and he went to hang out with his cousin that he sees everyday at school and his uncle. And he didn’t come back for 5 hours. He didn’t have a good childhood and his parents neglected him so he’s living with my family. It’s not that I don’t want him to spend time with his family. We were both talking about moving to Colorado together so that he could be closer to his grandma.

But lately everything is just building up, one thing after another and it feels like I’m not even his top priority, when he is mine. It legitimately feels like I love him more than he loves me. I put everything into our relationship and it just never feels like he’s considering me into any of his decisions. I also just feel like I can’t talk to him about it because no matter how I go about things, it just feels like I’m the selfish one and I’m the bad guy. And I don’t want him to think I don’t want him seeing his family.

I’m pretty young (18) so maybe I’m naive or overthinking things...if anyone has some sort of advice for me, that’d be great because my mind keeps looping in circles and I just can’t get a clear head about this.

If you read this all the way to the end you’re the real mvp lol.