FTM need some help!

Hey y’all

Let me start by hoping this will be a judge free zone.

My beautiful baby boy was born 3/5/19! I was DETERMINED to breast feed him! Well we had some issues with latching and then suckling and him being a few weeks early that ultimately led me to having to exclusively pump. So I’ve been doing that. And it is straight up EXHAUSTING! I feel like it’s taking me away from him and my husband and that I’m tied to the damn thing. It’s so frustrating for me. I struggle to pump and handle the baby at the same time and my husband goes back to work in a few short days. I always knew I wanted my babies to have breast milk to give them the beat start possible but lately; between the pain of pumping; my cracked and bleeding nipples; the rashes around my nipples; the time commitment and the frustration of hoping I make enough for him as he’s eating has seriously got me wanting to throw in the towel. Not to mention when his feed schedule doesn’t correspond with my pump schedule. And then sleep really is non existent. But I try to line that up as much as possible. Because sleeping at night right now is already difficult enough.

I use breast heating pads with every pump; I manually express also when I’m pumping; I’m experimented with the settings to try and spend less time at the pump; I use lanolin; coconut oil on my nips and breast pads as well.

Sincerely

A severely disappointed and frustrated mommy