tired of life

hello ladys!!

I wanna say something about my everyday life. Its been 3 years together with my now husband, In the first year everything was okay after that we ended up start fighting and yelling all the time.

Every single day im crying and i wanna die drinking pills and i know i love him but something is wrong.

His singer ,musician and he have his rights to go to the bars and sing live music but whats bother me is he didnt let me to go out even when he sings or do something, he stop me to makeup, he controll everything my clothes but whats the worst when we are out together his eyes are at every girl he see and he fight with me and yelling me why im watching other mens in fact I dont I only see whats in front of the way anyway what I do everything that he wants im staying home all daylong.

let me tell you his life, waking up in 3:00am eating something take a shower and his out untill 3:00pm in the morning and I have to wait him to come home.

I am tired of this life i just wanna be happy he says he loves me but i dont know what to think anymore.

please help me ladys