Family drama

I just need to vent for a second. Hormones are raging. I am 30 weeks pregnant baby will most likely come early do to complications. I also handle my fathers estate and have been so stressed dealing with family.

My brother and his wife never ask about us. Our only form of communication is about them or our father's money. I rarely get a response from them. They are planning their twins baptism. They want it either in April or May. I am one of their kids godmother, which I love their girls.

There is going to be scheduling conflicts because my family didn't want to combine baby shower with my friends. My mother who is hosting my shower will only do it the first weekend in May. My sister knowing that is cutting it close wants to move it to end of April.

So between two showers one of them that doesn't even have a set date and babys complications and more likely will be early. I don't want family to choose to come to a shower for me or my neices baptisms. I also don't want to miss it. I just feel frustrated with my family and always being put last.

I know I am hormonal and I am super sensitive due to our horrible family dynamic right now. I just wanted to focus selfishly on our baby right now. It just makes me feel sad.

When we got married my brother wouldn't communicate when he would be back from deployment and wasn't able to be at our wedding. My dad who I was so sole caregiver of around the clock died 6 weeks before our wedding. Then when we purchased our home and moved that day my family didn't show up because my sister in law thought she was in early labor (she wasn't thank goodness.) Just wanted this time to focus on our baby and celebrate our baby. Feel as though my family has been through the ringer and me and my husband have had the short end of the stick. Really just wanted to be selfish this time.