So tired of the emotional abuse.

Everything in my life is falling apart all at the same time..I’ve been in an emotionally abusive relationship for about 5 years, and I’ve been trying my hardest for the last couple months to build up the courage to walk away. But it’s so fucking hard when it feels like it’s all I have.. In the process, my “best friends” of like 10 years have come to tell me they’re tired of being friends with someone who is always so depressed and doesn’t leave.. no one understand what this is like. On top of all of this, my parents’ marriage is falling apart and my dad basically threatened to throw out my mom and I over stupid money problems.. I don’t know what to do anymore. I came to post this here since I have no friends to talk to, and I’m starting to really wish I wasn’t alive anymore. The only reason I’m still here is for my mother. I’m only 18, I know I should be living my best life enjoying my senior year of high school and being so excited for college, but I am so miserable and I wish I was dead. Everyone I care about makes me feel worthless. My friends are tired of me. My boyfriend tells me I’m worthless. My father is just as emotionally abusive. My mother is broken. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. Here’s screenshots of what my best friend just told me a few days ago and other screenshots of how my boyfriend of 5 years talks to me all because he couldn’t see my location for 30 minutes while I was busy.. somebody help me. I’m so tired. I’m so done. I’m not strong enough for this anymore.

Messages from my boyfriend...

My best friend who no longer wants to be my best friend..