I just want a best friend.........

My husband and I have been on a work trip for awhile now... It’s been fun and relaxing but now since it’s almost time to go home I can’t help but get depressed... I really don’t have anyone besides my husband!

I moved a couple hours away from my family when I got married and it’s been hard because I’ve always been really close to my family but everytime I try to call my mom and visit with her she either has my nephew (don’t get me wrong I love him so much) or my sister is at her house and I get to listen to them talk whatever and they pretty much forget I’m on the phone..😐

And then with my in-laws..... My MIL has ALWAYS favored my sister-in-law and now she’s pregnant so that makes it worse!! I recently went through a miscarriage and the whole time I got to hear about how my MIL had it worse because her youngest was born at 25 weeks (even though he lived & is doing great) her and my SIL tried convincing me that my MIL had it worse when she went through that.... And then a few weeks later I come down with a horrible case of the flu... Bad enough my Dr wouldn’t let me drive home because I was trying to black out.... My husband couldn’t get to me because he was at work so my MIL had to come get me and when she walks in the room she says “Oh you poor baby, Oh my! I hope Rachel doesn’t get this”.....

I wasn’t really wanting the world to know that I had the flu (I don’t like people knowing my business) but they got me loaded in the car nauseous/ throwing up etc..... My MIL sits there and texts idk who all that I had the flu!!! Literally EVERYONE knew I had the flu and all I told was my MIL & husband... And mom but she’s 2 hours away!

But all the way home I just kept hearing how it’ll just be awful if Rachel gets the flu and that she hopes she doesn’t get the flu.... I already felt bad enough! I would love to get to spend some 1-on-1 time with my mom or mother-in-law without having to share them... I don’t mean for it to sound selfish... I’m just tired of feeling like I don’t exists...

I just want a friend to talk to and hang out with that actually gets me and really likes me.... I feel like I’m the “leftovers” on both sides of the family...I’m just not ready to go home to deal with everyone again!!