Minding our Own Uterus(es?) (Uteri?) 😂

Here I am, married, 24, with one pretty badass little unplanned (but cherished) little boy. I never wanted kids, especially after I was told by numerous doctors that I “couldn’t” have one naturally.

Cleeeeearly they are not God (or what/whoever you believe in) and were wrong. And I’m glad they were, my little Eli has been a light in my life that I can’t turn off. He really is like the best baby ever. Great sleeper, somewhat independent, eats mostly anything I set out in front of him, etc.

There that adorable little curly, blonde headed blue eyed little boy is. Freaking adorable. Totally makes the toddler tantrum phase manageable (most the time 😅). I love being his mom. I love my little family of 3 humans and 2 dogs. I promise I love being his mom...........

There’s a lot of other things I love that DON’T **also** make me frustrated, angry, exhausted, depressed, isolated, a failure, etc at times. Again lemme say this for you Perfect Patricia’s in the back I AM GRATEFUL FOR AND LOVE MY KID!!!! Buuuuuuut... I also love rock climbing, writing, reading, working, lifting weights, hunting, kayaking, margaritas, traveling, and most of all being alone. This doesn’t mean imma go pawn my kid off on his grandparents and run down my dream by any means. I am his MOTHER and I raise him as a SAHM (mostly by myself as my husband is only home with our son on weekends). And it has been a constant battle trying to find balance between self care and family/home care.

So much so that I’ve felt suicidal at times, questioned who I am, all that good stuff. Seriously, if I’d have known how hard being a mom would be emotionally (and that those doctors were wrong), I probably would’ve stayed on BC. I’m glad I have my son, but I’ve decided, 100% I don’t want another kid. Do I want a planned pregnancy with all the fun things and the bump? Yeah, maybe. Do I want my HBAC? Definitely. But do I want to raise another child? No, I do not.

Baby showers, bump pics, gender reveals, giving birth... these aren’t reasons to bring a human life into this world. I’m ok with the fact that having an only child is best for me, and best for my family.

So tell me why any time I say this I get a “you’re too young to make that decision” or a “wow you really don’t like being a mom” or a “you’ll change your mind in a few years when he’s out of diapers” or a “he deserves a sibling” ....?!?! How bout y’all just mind ya business mmmmmkay? Mmmkay 🤷🏼‍♀️👍🏼