Guilt

Feeling bad ,guilty and like a horrid mother for my feelings, I found out today we are having a girl. I have a boy and girl already. I did not want a girl. My little man who is "special needs" is my heart but deep down was hoping for a boy who could do all the normal boy stuff. I feel unattached to my bump now , I was not happy when I heard girl the first time either and that changed once I held her but it feels diff this go round.... just wanted to vent