My story

I’m 21, almost finishing my education, I have a boyfriend, I love him, I do like to think of a future with him, he is 23, we’ve been together since I was 19, we use protection most of the time, I’m on the pill, but accidents happen. I picture my future, with a degree, a good job, happily married and with kids, but I don’t see that now, I see that in a distant future, I’m not ready to have kids, I’m not selfish, there are a lot of things I want to enjoy before I’m not able to enjoy them anymore because I will have kids, I’m not saying kids will stop you from having fun, I know they won’t, there are so many things I would like to do with my kids, but there are so many things I still want to do alone, or with just my boyfriend, but I got pregnant, and when that test came back positive, I cried, I thought my world was going to end, I did not want to have a child, I’m not ready, I’m young, I want to finish my education, I know you can finish it even if you’re pregnant, but I didn’t want that to be my case, my boyfriend didn’t want a kid either, he is working on getting a masters degree, we’re not ready to be parents, so we talked it over, and we both decided what was best. I got an abortion, I was 6 weeks pregnant, I went in with my boyfriend and my mom, he went to the room with me, he held my hand, and then we left, my mom hugged me and went back home, and I went back to my place with my boyfriend, I went to bed, and we had dinner in bed, as if nothing happened.

I don’t feel guilty, or bad or sad, I feel good and positive that what we decided was the best option, I know adoption was an option, but it wasn’t the best one, being pregnant was going to be a distraction, I did not wanted to carry a child for 9 months, call me selfish, because I know there are a lot of families out there that want a kid, but it’s my body and I did not want to go through it.

This happened a month ago, and I’ve been great, me and my boyfriend are still having sex, being more careful than ever, I still see a future with him, kids with him, I want it, but when we are ready, not when one comes.

This was my decision, it is my body, and only I know what’s best for me.

I thought it was time to share it, I know you guys may have different opinions, and I get it, judge me all you want, but at the end of the day, it’s my body dude, it’s my life, be happy that I’m happy