Fear of birth...

Hey all! I have two children, 7 and an almost 9 year old.

I had both vaginally, both were incredibly huge. I had an epidural with my first and went all natural with my 2nd. My 2nd natural birth was very traumatic, I wanna have another baby but terrified of having to give birth again. I’m also equally terrified of epidurals 😩 I was thinking maybe a csection would be best since my last one should have def been a c section cause she was so big. But like I said I’m terrified of the epidural and I’ve heard horror stories of them not taking effect or only taking effect on one side. Can anyone share some of their experiences and opinions on csections with me?

Thanks in advance!