Trying my best

I’m trying not to be so depressed. I talked to my husband last night to talk to him what all I think I need but only got off the little stuff. Today was my last straw with my family. They’re in world war 3 with themselves meaning my mom and grandma against my aunt, uncle and their three kids. I’m stuck in the middle as always because I won’t say anything to upset anyone but today I’ve decided to let everything go and cut everything out. I’m cutting social media besides this app. Cutting family members to the minimum being only my god kids because they’re the light of my world and will brighten up my life as soon as I see them. They’re so fun. I just love them to the end of this world and past the universe itself. I’m going to lost weight to make myself feel better about myself. I’m going to either pick up another hobby or start another business of mine. I want to spend more time in the country where I’m from. The sticks and the fields. I want to get back in touch with myself and less of Facebook and all that other crap that brings me down. Facebook is where the war is happening right now with my family over a damn photo that my mother tagged all of us in. Even though I talk to my mom and grandma all the time, apparently it’s not enough. My mom said she’s been waiting on me to text her back and I haven’t replied but I sent her a screenshot proving that I texted her yesterday and am still waiting on her to reply. She then told me that she’s sorry for reaching out and she still loves me. Whatever. Being this much drama on my page is my good for business and my customers that have friended me can see this crap. I want to get out the house more, go to the zoo, the botanical gardens or just walk/hike the national parks. I’ve decided to only leave my phone on from 8am-5pm for business hours only. If my family decide to call or text me during that time I’m undecided on what to do during that point and time. I want to start my own garden again and find myself again and the person that I’m truly meant to be. I just want to be happy and healthy then my husband and myself will hit the play button on starting a family again. My 5 god babies are enough for now for me to focus on kid wise, but I’m still very excited to have a baby hopefully one day. What hobbies would you guys recommend? I’m 24 but an old soul at heart. I love gardens, sewing, quilting and canning pickles 😂 I play Xbox but not so much anymore, I’m an old soul who just needs a break. I don’t drink or party, never have even in my teen years, I had two jobs to support my mom and me so not much room to be a teen or child. I remember once when my mom asked me how old I feel. I looked at her and said 35-40. I was only 17 and taking treatments for Hodgkins Lymphoma. She said really? I feel like I’m 18. I said yeah I bet you do. I’ve always been the adult, keeping everything together from a young age. I’ve always kept that role until I got married and my husband said to take a break because I deserve it since I’ve always worked so hard. That only lasted a week before I decided to start my own business and now just make extra money. What kind of hobbies would you guys pick up if you were me?