Feeling the worst today

A wave of depression has come over me. My boyfriend took our 2yo to grandmas for breakfast this morning so I could have a minute. But the bad thing is, I’m afraid it won’t help. My patience is wearing thin and I literally cannot stop crying today. I’m not trying to be all “poor me.” I just can’t talk to anyone about it. I’m so freaking tired all the time and I feel like I can’t control anything in my life, especially not my 2yo. Therapy isn’t an option because I can’t afford it. So now, I need to try to figure out what I can change.