Relationships

Ok so when I was 17 I started dating this guy we dated for about 2 years on and off. And I really did fall in love with him like we started off as good friends then we started to date. Well when I started college that’s when things started to change it’s like we were arguing everyday over stupid stuff we’d make up then it would start all over next week it would seem like. I remember when we got into a big argument he said he cheated on me but he was just joking he said but that always stayed in my head. Any who the arguing died down for a little and things seemed to go back to normal but I just couldn’t shake this feeling like I just didn’t love him anymore or didnt want to be with him like he was a good boyfriend he treated me the way any woman should be treated like he was my first everything but I just fell out of love with him so I broke it of a year and a couple months into the relationship with the possibility of getting back together after about 2 months I got back together with him things were ok I guess I was happy but something in me just didn’t want to be with him like I didn’t want to hurt him but I knew it didn’t feel right and ince again it got back into that. cycle of arguing over stupid stuff so once again I ended it for good. But he still checks on me from time to time but recently wanted to meet up I don’t mind still being friends with him I just don’t want a relationship with him anymore but he wants to get back together I just don’t know what to do cause I love him still but I’m the way of wanting the best for him wanting him to be happy. Cause I am no longer in love with him I more or less have love for him.