Honestly can’t wait till I can spark up again (former stoner woes)

I stopped smoking the day I got my positive test, and husband and I both wholeheartedly agreed that I would not toke at all during these next nine months. But lately I really can’t seem to stop thinking about how glorious that first smoke (after I’m done breastfeeding.. whenever that may be) is going to be.

My hubby works as a higher-up/manager at our town dispensary. We’re planning our baby shower and a lot of guests will be his coworkers. He SERIOUSLY said to me “atleast after the baby shower we can all smoke.” I gave him a major eye roll and said “yeah. YOU GUYS can all smoke.”

I know a couple girls through him who smoked their *entire* pregnancies and we’re not willing to subject our baby to that, but dang. I am jealous everytime I hear him goofing around, giggling and stoned as hell.