Totally heart broken and cant stop crying

Everyone meet bella shes my staffy cross

Well today we had our vet visit and have been told her cancer is back and sight is going... they've told us she wont survive the operation she needs. . So they've suggested we have her put to sleep as it's the kindest thing we can do for her she will be 15 this year I've had her 8 years and they've booked her in for 2:30 today for when my husband is home... I'm not ready to let her go yet it's just so hard I had so much hope that it wasnt going to be cancer 😪😢 I've been crying all morning and just dont know what to do... I knew she wouldn't be with us forever but hoped she would be here to meet our new arrival in November... I dont know what I'm going to tell our kids when they home my heart is just so broken right now... I love her so much it's so hard to say good bye... my husband has told me to goes spend some time with friends while he takes her... I know it's the right thing to do and she will no longer be in pain and can rest easy with our precious twins we lost in 2013 and take good care of them... thank you for reading just needed to get it off my chest xx