How do you do it?

I have irregularly regular periods. 😭😭 I’ll be 21 days for months then randomly have a 28 day cycle. 31 day cycles for months then randomly have a 23 day cycle. You never know with my flow! I was sure this was my month. (March) I had all the right symptoms and tracked a best as I could for ovulation and implantation. Period just ended up being 8 days late. Finally started to bleed today. I took like 6 test from the day of my somewhat expected period to today before I started af. Before the last stick I prayed for strength. That if it’s negative I’ll get through it and won’t feel the horrible disappointment in my ability to conceive. Who else has irregular periods? How do you guys track anything? I know when and if it’s meant to be it will happen. So I don’t obsess over it too much.