My man went out with someone else

Alright, this is really hard to talk about. I have been with my boyfriend for nearly two years now. He is so amazing and loving and caring and always tries to do his best in everything he can. He always makes sure that I am doing good and that I am happy.

Like every couple we do argue but we never stay mad at each other for long. We’re both taking a trip to Spain (we’re actually leaving tomorrow) just us two. I was planning on making it very romantic, I contacted the hotel we’re staying at to have flowers in the room and everything it will be so cute. I planned some nice long romantic bubble baths some nights. We never took any and I think it’s so relaxing and peaceful and intimate so yeah 🥰. Planned on going hiking and making this little travel video of both of us. It’s his first time going out of the country and I am so excited, he just got his first ever passport. He was also very exited!

However, lately I have been so sad and broken... this unknown girl that I have never seen in my life contacted me through instagram saying that she really had to talk to me about my boyfriend...

I was so confused and thought what does she want to tell me. So I just started to reply to her curious about what this lady had to say. She was talking to me about how she has been going on dates with my boyfriend and how after a “business trip” to Spain that he had to go to he was going to break up with me and go with her.

All I have thinking is how crazy this is and how absurd that is. I knew this was a lie and I was just mad on why some stranger would be so terrible to spread random lies lie that. But then she told me some details and stuff that a stranger wouldn’t know about.

My heart started racing and she asked to meet me.

So I did.

And everything appeared to be true. So did tell me that nothing ever happened and they were just going out on dates.

I was so devastated and when I brought it up to my boyfriend he was just like “baby I really don’t know why I did that. It is so wrong and I didn’t mean all these. They were just lies and she doesn’t mean anything to me.”

I was so heart broken.

However after a couple days and some long talks he was just saying how he misses the beginning of our relationship and he feels like he has restrictions on what he can and cannot say around me, and he feel so terrible about what he did because he doesn’t know why he did it and he was going to stop talking to her once we came back from our trip and that I am the love of his life and he sees us about to mive in together and later start a family and have a dog. But right now all he thinks about is how he fucked up very bad and he’s so afraid to lose me.

The thing is that I am so hurt and feel betrayed. I do know that he is the love of my life and he really screwed up really really really bad. I said that ny decision for now is that we’re going to enjoy our trip but that when we come back we will have to take some distance between each other.

I know it’s for the best but it will tear me apart not to see him everyday anymore and hold him in my arms and kiss him...

Also, I don’t know why but I am afraid about people who would say that I have no respect for myself for staying with him after that ....

I am also scared for that to happen again of course... Having my trust back for him will take so long and I don’t know how long. I am just so afraid to be in a relationship and that my trust isn’t there.