Sad and just need some well wishes.. :(

I’m starting to hate my baby... I mean I love him... but I catch myself being so incredibly irritated. Everything he does has been annoying me. He’s so miserable and it’s just frustrating that I have to hold him all the time. My husband is gone for two months so I’ve been doing EVERYTHING by myself all day every single day. I’m staying with my parents but they won’t watch him so I can leave the house they will only hold him for a few seconds at a time. I don’t mind, they just don’t want to babysit and that’s okay, but I don’t know anyone here besides them... my husband MIGHT be able to visit on weekends but just keeps saying “idk”. I honestly hate being alone and being a mom... just sad and needed to vent