I'm done

My husband doesn't believe that depression exists. I'm always crying and asking for help but I don't get none. I'm done, I just want my life to be over. I look at my babies and I know for sure they deserve better. I can't be better for them til I'm better for myself. And that's not happening. My marriage is falling apart and I honestly don't care if it does. I sometimes sit and watch my babies cry cuz I literally can not get up to get them. I have no care in me left for anything