**Trigger warning// Miscarriage**

I’m hurt right now. I don’t know if it’s jealousy or just emotional hurt. My sister in law (we don’t get along) not the point but she has three beautiful babies. I have just my 2 year old son. We’ve been trying to conceive #2 since before she has her baby #3 for 18mths now is rough it to. Anyway I had a horrible miscarriage at 10weeks in June I later didn’t tell anybody until January/feb as that was our estimated date he/she would have been here. My SIL did next to nothing not even acknowledging the pain. I didn’t except her to move over backwards but Idk she was just cold. So 2mths later she has now announced #4 is on the way. I’m crushed and hurt and I don’t know why. I just don’t understand God’s doing right now. Why can’t I be blessed with even another healthy baby but she has popped out 3 going on 4.

I know I shouldn’t complain as I’m more blessed then most to already have a child but I just don’t know how to stop feeling this way. 😭😭😭😪