So sleep deprived it ain’t even funny

Seriously for the last 2 1/2 weeks I’ve been doing all the night feedings. My SO works 3rd shift and sleeps during the day so I get no help pretty much at all. I also have a preschooler so I can’t nap during the day once she’s home from school. I used to look forward to weekends for a little help but mop, first weekend he was too tired from helping move his sisters stuff out her house then last weekend he was sick with a cold. Well now it’s coming up in this weekend and guess what? I have a cold and can’t use that as an excuse. I run off maybe 3 hours a sleep a day I can’t take it anymore idk what to do for myself i EbF but I’m at the point where I want to give up I can’t handle these multiple hourly feedings anymore, my eyeballs are so sore I’m hardly eating this baby cries all the fucking time I feel like I can hardly shower and when I do I have to do it within 5 minutes. It was not this hard with my first it is making me resent myself and regretting having another baby. I’m just so tired I have no help outside of SO