Mom guilt

How do you combat mom guilt? I love my baby, he will be one on Friday 😱😱 I currently work at a doctors office and the hours are different each day and now we are adding a doctor on and they are gonna be even longer, I won’t be able to do morning workouts any more, which means now I’ll have to start missing evening with my sweet boy 3 nights a week on top of missing the day, and while I have all weekend with him I already feel like a terrible mom. He’s starting choosing my husband over me, and I feel like I never see him. I have to go to the gym bc I have to lose weight, I’m in the Air National Guard and we are planning to go active duty once I lose more and meet the qualifications. But how do I combat these feelings now? I just feel so sad, and defeated, I miss my time with my baby. 😭

Look at this sweet face! How am I supposed to keep this up?