I don’t even know where to begin, but I need to get it out I guess. I just feel so beyond depressed and lost. After losing my first pregnancy I’ve just been obsessing over it. Always thinking about it, wondering when we will start trying again, wondering how long my cycles are, when will I ovulate? It’s just so hard... it’s literally on my mind 24/7 and I can’t even talk to my husband about it because his response is always “it will happen when it’s supposed to” which drives me absolutely nuts. It feels beyond dismissive and it’s like he doesn’t understand how badly this loss has affected me, on top of it, it’s like we never talk or can ever hold a conversation and he never seems to want to spend time with me. I tried spending time with him on my day off but he works nights so it’s hard, but he basically pushed me away and I’ve barely talked to him since. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know how to stop feeling like I’m drowning all the damn time. I need purpose again, I need to feel like I’m wanted and cared about again... and honestly I really don’t know when or if that will ever happen again...