In need of support and advice ... HELP

Hey ladies ! Hope everyone’s day is going great.

I used to have an account before and I would post some concerns about my relationship and I truly appreciated your support until everyone started being very rude ... if I would comment on someone post they would immediately fire back with “Look who’s talking... girl who can’t leave her abusive boyfriend” some of you don’t understand what I’m going through. I’m not saying that I’m the only one who goes through hard times but I would appreciate more compassion because it is very hard already. It’s not so simple to “pack up” and “leave” like many of you suggest.

So if you are hating on me please don’t read or it will make you mad at me.

THE ISSUE:

Today is our month anniversary... I woke up and wrote him a beautiful message of how I appreciate him and how much I love him. He said the same and it started out very good. We saw each other at warm ups and laughed and just spent a little time together after breakfast and it was amazing. I was thinking oh how great!

Today at the morning training everything started good... until I missed two attempts on some good weight and got upset (I feel very emotional today) he is lifting on a platform next to me and he saw my attempt and saw that I was about to cry and told me “Go ahead cry, cry” and made fun of me that I was upset. Well it added more sadness to me and I kept training until he started to tell me “You should’ve done better...” and all that crap so I told him “Leave me alone”

That’s where he got VERY mad at me... he said “I was trying to support you and you act like a stupid girl” I started to ignore him and he kept saying “Don’t ever ask for my support again!!!”/ “Go f*** yourself” ... and that truly hurt me...

Stupid me immediately thought that maybe I made a mistake and he was helping me so I apologized but he didn’t accept my apology...

then he asked me very rudely to help him put the blocks back he said it “Veronika, help me with blocks” when I picked it up I told him “Why when you are emotional and hurt me I have to understand you but when I am ...” and he didn’t let me finish told me “Shut your damn mouth”

That hurt me so much... then he said “Don’t you ever compare myself to you”

so I started to cry because I’m upset and well I wiped my tears and finished my training on a calm mind. He started having tantrums and couldn’t do what he wanted to do which means he will probably text me and blame me for everything... he already is...

I don’t see the issue... everything could have been fixed easily if only he wasn’t so abusive...

what do you think? Is it my fault ?

Sorry again girls... I know I piss you off ....

I’m slowly coming to realization...