I just need to vent or talk to someone. I just turned 42 and never had a prob getting pregnant when not trying and with the wrong people ( I have 3 daughter is 22 son whose 14 and son 6) I've had 2 miscarriages and 1 termination ( please don't judge) but a few years ago meet the most amazing man whose now my fiance whose raising my little one as his own ( and little guys only knows him to be dad) but my fiance has no biological children I've been tested because we have been not using protection for 3 years and actively trying for two years. My tests came back ok his tests not so great but we been trying all kinds of vitamins and charting and all that wonderful stuff that all of you are probably doing to ( sorry so long) but got new lh and HCG strips in mail on his bday April 2 so decided to try then out ( I'm a peeing on sticks addict lol ) and first time ever a faint line showed up I ran a pole on here and 90%said yes they see it and congrats well next day line was gone now I was due yet for period now today I'm due and take the tests again and get this(I'll post a pic) sucks because I'm trying not to be excited which to late I already want to be but most of me just wants to cry cuz I'm afraid and now I want to get a better test to see but I'm afraid that the line will go away again at least right now I can keep looking at the pic and smile but so scared to take another and watch our miracle dream disappear again