It’s never going to end

I feel like me life is just an endless cycle of binging, purging, and gaining more weight. I used to have such good self control and finally got down to 95lbs. Now I’m up at 110 and I actually want to die. I’m disgusted with myself. I’m never even hungry but I keep just fucking stuffing my face and I can’t stop.

A day later and I only at 500 calories today with exercise. Maybe I can do better tomorrow