I'm so scared to even test☹️

Ive had 2 MCs in the past year and how I'm 4 days late mind you my periods are always on time the most it's ever been late without me being pregnant is 1 day....I have tender breast... Nausea... dizziness....but I'm so scared to test it's sad I'm even scared to see a positive because im scared of what may happen but I want my rainbow so bad😭❤️ I hate that the MCs have taken this happy moment from me☹️Please ladies i needs some kind of encouragingme to thoughts to keep my mind from going crazy😭😭