Just venting

So I’m 9 months pregnant, of course I’ve gained weight (30 lbs). Me and my mother haven’t always had the best relationship and I’ve distanced myself because she’s just full of negativity and negative energy all the time. Well I was trying to include her (she’s been complaining to my brothers how I hate her, I don’t) so I invited her to my final appointment. I get weighed and she walked up to the scale and said geez you’re fucking fat (I was 110 pre pregnancy and 140 at the appointment). I brushed it off and walked to the room. The dr comes in and goes to measure the belly and check the heart beat so I lift my shirt and she commented holy cow you’re huge. Me and the dr both look at her and I tell the dr just to continue. The dr gives me my results (gbs and my induction date) then we leave. We walk out of the building and I’m wearing shorts because it’s hot and she makes a comment about the back of my legs being jiggly and lumpy and that she’d be surprised if my husband stayed with me after I delivered because i would look disgusting and there’s no way I would be attractive.

I just lost it, I went off in front of every person outside and asked her what the fuck her problem was and if she was going to be that way to stay the hell away from me. That it’s Norma to gain weight with pregnancy as every part of your body changes or have you forgotten. Then I went after her looks (yes, I shouldn’t of but I couldn’t take it) I told her after 4 kids she needed to look at herself she’s 5’1 and 300 lbs and looks like a busted ass can of biscuits. Until she looked like a damn swim suit model her ass had no business commenting on the way others bodies looked that it was people like her that drive moms into a depression because they’re so full of themselves and more consumed with the way they “should” look to society.

I know I’ll lose the weight almost immediately after the baby (I did with my first) but she will never gain respect from me and will not be welcome after I have the baby unless she changes her attitude and pulls her head out of her ass.

A part of me feels bad but a bigger part of me feels amazing. I finally stood up for myself to her. I just can’t stand that type of behavior from anyone. We’re women were supposed to build each other up not tear each other down. Ugh, I just wish I had one of those amazing relationships with my mom like some other ladies do but I’ll never have that and it hurts me so bad.