ughhhhh

yall im just ranting but oh my GOD this guy....

im kinda fucked up from like past guys and relos and this guy, he kinda just fucking gets it and he doesnt push me and he hasnt tried to make me do anything. we’re a fucking party tn and hes like hey i need to talk to you and he pulls me around the side of the house and hes kinda just there like can i kiss you and i pushed him away because it was a work party and i didnt want people knowing just yet and now i cant fucking sleep because i keep thinking about it 😭

i really wanna make plans w him next week and just apologise because FUCK ive been waiting for that kiss for two years dont even want it to be special just want it to fucking happen UGHHHHHHHHH

gosh im so sad yall why does he have to be nice and why do i have to get mad at him just cause i wanna be mad